So my life has been somewhat busy lately, and the many things going on at once has put some stress on me. For me at least, stress comes packaged with de-moralization/apathy and can cause me to get side0tracked from the things I love doing and am working towards doing in the future.

Currently it feels like I'm losing interest/focus on my 3D animation course and general study. Now I started this course with the dream of making my way into the video game industry as I just love video games. I believe that simply having this dream is extremely important to me in both a professional and personal sense, so I would like to take a step back from my life for a moment and share my thoughts on such dreams.

After all, we all have dreams... don't we? Pictures in our mind showing where we would like to be, who we want to be, and what we want to be doing in our lives. The idea of having a dream is often instilled upon us from when w are young children, often by our parents, teachers, and our cartoon heroes shouting "Never give up on your dream (name), go all the way!" Of course our dreams can change over time from when we are little right through to the time whence we breathe our last breath. Hell, when I was in my early primary school years I wanted to be a pro skater! That dream is now but a distant memory.

But how many of us still place importance on having a dream, or even have a dream at all? Often when I'm going about my business in a public place, I observe the people around me. Naturally, there is a very large variety of people with all sorts of defining details to their selves, but I'm often more interested in their attitudes. My main observation, one that does sadden me, is people who appear to be caught in the "rat race" of life, going to work at a job they don't like, so they can buy things they don't need, for a house that's got unnecessary space, and is in a location they don't care about. Of course, assumptions based off behavioral observations can be wrong due to things like the person just having a bad day among other things, but it doesn't seem that way when I see people near me on the train sigh of exhaustion, complain to each other about how they don't like their work, talk about how they're looking forward to getting away from everything with a nice little vacation, and I see their eyes and they don't appear to be happy. Do these people still have a dream they chase? Do they have one but they dismiss that it will never come to pass?

Maybe the way we grow up in society is a large factor on how much importance we place in our dreams. Sure, we have bright hopes when we are little kids, but as we get older we go through the whole "growing up" phase of development, and as we do so we learn harsh truths about the world. Such truths can cause people to give up hope of achieving some goals, believing certain things are possible, and it almost appears that high-schools don't want to promote striving towards our long term goals and dreams and visions for our future. Sometimes when someone speaks of their desire to become something like a game developer or an actor or something like that, their words are met with negativity. "Why are you trying to do that? you'll never make it," "That's much too hard sir, why don't you try this instead?" "What are you retarded? You have to be EXTREMELY good at (craft skill) to have any chance of having a career in that."

I despise this kind of negative approach to the goals of those who dare to dream, dare to seek something more than the ordinary in this life. I certainly have no desire to spend my whole working life in an office job working for a company I don't give 2 shits about. As I said, since I was young I've wanted to work in the video game industry, and in years 9/10 of highschool I decided that I would pursue a career there as a 3D animator. My desire to pursue this pathway was met with scorn and disbelief from many of my peers, who still have doubts about my potential ability to make it into the games industry. I find it disappointing that some people simply cannot find the decency to just have some encouragement, even if it was encouragement with words of caution I would still be happy to receive it.

When I go to college each day, I enjoy working. To me I could hardly even classify it as work as I get to have a lot of fun with what I do. It amazed me that almost everyone that went to a TAFE or Uni course from my highschool has either dropped out (most before the 6 month mark) or complains about how shit they reckon their course is. I think the problem for all these people is that they simply didn't have a passion for what they were doing, they didn't enjoy it, and most likely it wasn't a part of their dreams.

I feel that people need to really take some time to look deep within themselves and ask themselves truly and honestly what they want to do, where they want to be, who they want to be. And whatever their answer may be to that question, to pursue it with all their power, surpassing any and all obstacles in their path so that they may obtain that dream. If my friend told me he has a dream to become a movie actor, I'd say "great, go do it," same as if he told me he wanted to be an astronaut, a florist, a waiter, anything really. So long as it was what he really wanted to do and enjoyed doing (because enjoying the journey is as important as the destination), then I'd be all for it.

Be pro-active and live your dream!

So it begins

So I've finally done it, I've made a blog. I've thought about doing this for a fairly long time but couldn't really figure out what I would write about, or how I'd make it interesting, that kind of thing. I'll be amazed if I end up with even 1 person reading it ever.

Why have I made this blog? I don't really know, maybe I figure I can connect with people in the process of analyzing the going-ons of my life as it happens.

So I'll start with some information about myself. I'm an 18 year old male living in Perth, Western Australia. My general interests include video games, anime, 3D animated stuff, martial arts, and occult themed fiction books, among other things. I'm generally an introverted, shy, geeky person, and I have trouble meeting new people but I'm much more comfortable around the friends I already have (I'll still often stay quiet though).

I'll leave it at that for now, and I'll do more posts when life happens to me :)